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i dont like it, but i take it anyway. youre there for me emotionally, but at the same time youre not. youre there physically, but not all the time. you say certain things, but you dont mean them the way i hear them.
i miss you like crazy and i wish things were easier. but wheres the fun in that, right ? just kidding, i really do wish things were easier..
i wish i were more optimistic about it.
i was angry at you for a very long time. i thought you didnt love us even though you bought me my very first bike, you flipped me and played with me when i was young, you made me laugh and you spoiled me when mom always said no, you took me fishing, and you drove me to school everyday till my junior year in high school. i imagined you coming to my high school graduation and telling me how proud you were and i imagined you walking me down the aisle when i finally got married. but then you decided to not let those things happen. you thought only of yourself.
you didnt think about me or mom or the rest of the family.
PILIPINO AMERICAN CULTURE NIGHT.
thats right everybody ! its less than 1 week away !
im dancing three dances all in the first half of the show !
im so anxious and excited at the same time.
its my first pacn and its my first time in a LONG time
performing on a stage. i miss it sometimes, so i cant
wait to share the stage with such great people.
weve worked so hard these past two and a half months and the
show is finally this friday ! im proud of this show and of the suites
im in and i cant wait to perform !
weeeeeeeeeee !! (:
1. got free lunch from work. this happened because it was the welcome bbq for the new international programs for the spring quarter.
2. saw ayaka and tomoyo again since theyre back this spring and staying for 9 months ! this happened because they decided to sign up for another program and wanted to come back to uci.
3. went to watch the skit performance of behind the scenes for our pacn. its such a good story. im excited for everyone to see it. this happened because skit wanted to allow the rest of its pacn members to watch the performance since they know it could be difficult while were backstage.
1. met up with my twin and got lunch. we caught up yesterday but sometimes she just cant get enough of me.. this happens because she loves me and wants to spend all her free time with me (: haha probably just because we usually are down to just chill and hang out.
2. substituted insanity for a day of my p90x schedule since i dont have a lot of the equipment for it. still worked me hard though haha this happened because instead of just not working out today because of my lack of resources, i was still motivated to get the best kind of workout.
3. called my mom and talked to her about some of my future plans like my car and my living situation for school. this happened because i value her opinion on things and i want to keep her updated with me life. plus i missed her. <3
1. got a good morning call from someone very special to me. this happened because were starting something new and i think he wanted to talk to me a bit before he started his day.
2. made some time and hung out with a couple friends today. one was julie, but sometimes we dont always get to catch up so it was nice to update each other. the other was kathy. haven’t seen her since before finals last quarter. caught her up on my chaos and me up on hers. we cray but dats coo’. this happened because we care about quality time with each other.
3. MC practice tonight was really productive ! this happened because we have awesome coords that are doing their best to teach us everything and allowing us to have fun at the same time. plus the girls in the dance are pretty fun to hang out.
ahhhh so i just went shopping for the first time in… i dont even know how long. it felt weird pressing that “place order” button, but there was some familiarity to it. at the same time, i felt bad. but ive been wanting those shoes for a while.. its hard for a girl to find some comfortable heels. hahaha problems of a girl… LOL
1. completed the hardest day in p90x’s weekly schedule: plyometrics !
2. went to OC DinDin-a-GoGo with julie and black and got @nwatruck. Half n half burrito was soooo good. that garlic fried rice hit the spot and made the burrito so much more flavorful !
3. had a good lazos practice session. listened to the music and go to understand the rhythm of the moves more.
1. completed my second day of p90x. this time i did yoga x and it worked me good ahaha andd i didnt cheat today on my diet plan. no unhealthy snacks and sweets !
2. invited some friends to pacn and some of them asked me when theyd be able to buy tickets ! theyre actually going to come and watch to support me and kaba ! (:
3. decided on a car to check out. so hopefully ill be getting it soon. i think im going to lease it for now too to somewhat save money in the short run, but possibly lose money in the long run. oh well, id sacrifice that for a car ive been looking for.
1. woke up really early but i was happy when i did. but it was bittersweet at the same time.
2. made really good sauteed veggies and pork, that was under 500 calories and fed me throughout the whole day !!! but i cheated and ate cookies :3
3. started the p90x kenpo workout and tried to do the p90x ab ripper.. ahaha it was interesting but kenpo was kinda fun, but it pushed me. AND my roommate is gonna do it with me now (:< but i need to go buy a heart rate monitor haha.
